Frustration...

I'm going to vent for a minute... I am frustrated about a lot lately, my job, my blog not looking the way I want it too, my fantasy football team, and the list goes on. My biggest frustration at the moment has to do with my wife and all she has been through the last 8 months.
I really don't know where to start, but most people who will read this know some of the background already. She had a neuro-stimulator placed that was supposed to help her headaches. They did 2 trials to see if it would work before the permanent implant. Unfortunately something went wrong in both of the trials, but one of them yielded results that made us believe that the permanent device would help. The problem is that the doctor who did the trial is not the doctor that did the permanent. To add to the problem the doctor over-seeing the permanent implant has a reputation of being good, and that rep has gone straight to his head. This kept the doctor who did the trial from being able to give any input as to what worked in the trial. She has had the permanent implant surgery done twice now, and the leads are still not in the right place and the device is still not helping her. The thing I really have a problem with is that my wife is awake for the first part of the surgery to ensure that the leads are put in the right place, and during that time she could hear the impatient comments of the arrogant doctor. It is very discouraging that someone who has gone into the medical profession to help people isn't willing to take the extra 5 minutes to make sure they are helping.
Yesterday Nikki began to have excruciating pain coming from one of the areas of surgery, for no known reason. Now getting doctors and clinics to work together again just to get an x-ray on a Sunday seems impossible. We're the last people who want anyone to have to work on a Sunday, but when Nikki is so miserable I just want to do what I can to get her better.
It really breaks my heart that she has to go through so much, and there is nothing I can do to help! I can help with dinner, housework, and the kids, but I can't fix what's wrong with her, and I can't even make her feel better. I really just wish that there was more I could to help her to feel better. I still hope that we can find a way to get this device to work. It will probably require another trial, and a trip to Denver to have one of the best perform the permanent implant, but in all honesty, anything would be worth getting Nikki the relief she deserves.

What to do...

Wow, time flies!! I can't believe it has been so long since I posted anything. Nikki got a blog going and I wanted to make mine look fancy, but I haven't had any success. I thought about starting to blog again, but I'm not sure whether I should keep this blog, or just blog on our family blog. I don't want to just let this die, and it would be cool to have my own background(if I can get it to work), and my own songs etc... I am afraid that I can't keep this thing interesting on my own. I know that if I blog on the family blog that between Nikki and I it will be updated often enough to keep it interesting. I just don't want 2 years to blow by me again!!!

In case you were wondering, the Botox was short lived and really didn't give any long term benefit, in fact, shortly after I wrote that it was ineffective, even after more injections. So much has happened in the last 2 years I don't know where to start... Nikki has tried a lot of things, all of which, not much help. Skyler continues to have his surgeries every 6 months and not complaining for the 5 1/2 months in-between. Skyler and Nikki are both so tough and really an inspiration any time I hear myself complain. I realize that I don't have much to complain about!